hello big bad world. be prepared for a kara rant right now.

looks like i'm gonna have to wait a bit longer than i thought to put my laptop into get fixed. usually my mum goes out to look after my sisters kids on tuesday arvos so was gonna make a a detour to the service centre she put it in last time. but nadines down the hospital with errine still quite sick and reiley in tow. so for some reason, nadine didnt think she needed mums help today. so long story short, my laptop wont be getting put in to be fixed until mum goes to see nadine or to unley to get some more dog meat (yes quite lame i know, going all the way to unley for dog meat) well as far as i know shes got her sleep apnea post test appt (or whatever the fuck its called) tomorrow morning early so might be able to do it then. fingers crossed coz i miss my laptop tooooo much and using dad's pc is just plain annoying. i need some damn luck with my laptop. finally get a new power cord and now it over heats and turns off! FFS!

damn cramps, i've been having the worst cramps for about 24hours now. it got so bad that i had to be put to bed with a hot water bottle just after home and away. i struggled to stay up and watch half of a double ep of city homicide. so happy that shows back on then a new ep of dexter. i was stuggling to keep my eyes open, i forgot how long dexter eps were. felt like it was never gonna end.  then i went to sleep and was up every 3 hours in pain :(

i wanna go to gigs god damn it. looks like bep still have tickets. might need to get around to buying one before they sell out. same with sarah blasko tickets, most likely going solo to that coz a certain someone wont make up their bloody mind if they wanna go or not. im kicking myself coz eskimo joes gig is on thursday. damn work and good gigs when i have to work eg. THURSDAY NIGHTS.
i've been listening to paul dempseys new album on myspace this arvo, i want it and him and all the above. hmmm dempsey. yet another thurs night gig for him in september. fuck that.

drama drama drama. certain conversation just then with someone. ick. i feel like dr phil. maybe a future profession? i can deal with other peoples problems but not my own. fuck that.  i'm like bridget jones i reckon. a fat and lonely spinster. forever single. maybe like an old cat woman but is catless coz she hates cats! this is really starting to get me down, not that i'd tell anyone that. theres times when i remember something from when i was with shaun and its like a stab in the heart and makes me hurt. then theres other times that i wish to have back what i had with chris, when i was so happy that i'd watch him sleep and he didnt think that was crazy. the times we'd stay up all night talking about everything and anything. i miss having that connection with someone, being that person who understands someone the most in the whole world. to be their favourist person and they're everything. man i'm sounding emo and way too personal so i shall stop.

until next time (or if i can think of something actually worth writing)

xxx